I am writing to share with you a troubling situation that I brought on myself so you, my friends, are warned not to make the mistake of traveling the same path.
I have a small green book with a golden cross on it. The book contains Bible verses for each day of the week as well as reflections and prayers to be read throughout the week. For three years it had been part of my discipline to start each week on Sunday evening by reading the Bible verses, some reflections, and praying. It was like a second Sunday service for me. Then each evening during the week I would read the Bible verse for that day and pray. I also have a small black book I carry in my pocket. I would use it throughout the day to read reflections and prayers at least three times a day and some days as many as five. I use the Upper Room devotional to start each day with a Bible reading, devotion and prayer. I say this not to brag but to give you an idea of the spiritual discipline I had built up over the years.
One Sunday night nearly two months ago I moved the ribbon bookmark in the small green book with the golden cross to that evening’s reading. I stared at the book. For no particular reason, I thought “I don’t feel like reading that tonight” and laid the book back down.